Week 11 - Post Freedom

Week 11 - Post Freedom - Sunday, May 27 Steps - Tradition 5. Service Helping Others. 7:30 CW Alcathon - Give $1 to a beggar, they need it more than me. *SHARED 10 CW Alcathon - Ego Monday, May 28 Feelings - Gratitude. Do the same thing you did yesterday, because yesterday worked pretty well. SWAN - We Agnostics. BB. Atom/Adam *READ Tuesday, May 29 Noon @ CW - Topic = Alcoholism. It's my alcoholism, not alcoholwasm 8pm Aston - Sober Holiday. Time heals. Relationships heal. Significant other issues. Wednesday, May 30 Hardcore - Got my gold 60 day coin! SHARED I need to learn how to sit in the back of the bus and just enjoy the ride. Not sit right behind the driver and try to steer/direct. He Gave, He Took, He Left - GOD Sproul - Took Kaelie. Got another coin. Pray for your fucking enemies. 4 cylinder person with a 8 cylinder brain/imagination Thursday, May 31 FreeFlow - New Normal. Without drinking I can do anything I want to, including drink *SHARED/READ Alumni - Relationships. Jobs. Passions. Friday, June 1 Nooners - Unity Reps Pitch. Service. Committees. Get involved. There is a wrench to fit every nut. Alumni - Maddie spoke. Exercise. Relationships. Drinking to make work day go quicker. Making the right, obvious choices sober. Saturday, June 2 10am @ CW - Doesn't matter if it is a disease or not, its a problem. Brought K *SHARED I am not where I want to be in my life bc of a direct result of my drinking You either grow or you go 1:30 @ CW - Brought K and Shea Half measures availed us nothing. Insanity. Can't do this alone. Sat Night Alive - Traditions are important. New comers struggling. *SHARED/READ Made it to 16 meetings this week. Shared at 5 meetings this week. Tried 2 different meetings this week. Made 1 new girlfriend. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 3 days in 77 days. I have gone to 107 meetings in 77 days (11 weeks)

Week 10 - Post Freedom

Week 10 - Post Freedom - Sunday, May 20 Steps - Stop trying to run the show. Stop trying to drive the car. My God changes gender, it is whatever I need it to be. *SHARED Monday, May 21 SWAN - Alter ego popping up. She knows how to get attention but its not the good kind of attention. *SHARED/READ Beginners - Tuesday, May 22 530 @ CW - AA is my new crutch, it used to be alcohol. GOD - Gratitude, Obedience, Disapline Me drinking again is like me pulling the trigger of a gun with 6 bullets in the chamber. Wednesday, May 23 Noon @ CW R's NA Meeting - Gratitude. Honesty. Openmindedness and Willingness. Thursday, May 24 WHIP - Double life. Coach/Drunk. Supermom/Drunk. *SHARED Friday, May 25 730 @ CW - Tradition 5. Meet people where they are (emotionally etc). My recovery only extends as far as my nose. Traditions = glue *SHARED Saturday, May 26 Alumni - Life happens. Connections/Friends. WE program. Hardcore BB - B/C I'm an Alcoholic. Very similar to my story. *SHARED Made it to 10 meetings this week. Shared at 5 meetings this week. Tried 2 different meetings this week. Made 3 new girlfriend. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 3 days in 70 days. I have gone to 91 meetings in 70 days (10 weeks)

Week 9 - Post Freedom

Week 9 - Post Freedom - Sunday, May 13 - Mother's Day - 43 Days 1030 @ CW - Disease is still out there, in the starting blocks, waiting for the gun Sobriety = keystone. If it goes, it ALL goes. ONE job = to stay sober Bottomless bottoms, except not bc any one could be your last. Russian roulette. Your alcoholism didn't get you arrested, you did. 430 @ CW - Everyday is new, different, and odd. Its not good or bad, it just is. SHARED* Monday, May 14 SWAN - Step 5. Respect a dog for its master. *SHARED/READ Just bc I'm sober, doesn't mean I'm sane. If you say it, you'll forget it. If you write it, you'll regret it. Beginners - TIME = Time I Must Earn As long as its not my idea, it's probably a good idea. Tuesday, May 15 FREEDOM ALUMNI! #4 Wednesday, May 15 R's NA Homegroup - Stay on your toes. Monkey is still around. Trudging through feelings. *SHARED Thursday, May 16 Swat Thurs - Wanting to be a story collector. Related A LOT to speaker. *SHARED The only meeting you're late to is the first one. Friday, May 17 530 @ CW - Alcohol will always be there, my alcoholism doesn't have to be. Scared me into here. 730 Haverford - Build my recovery on those painful events/memories. *SHARED My actions not matching my values Saturday, May 18 1030 @ CW - ABCs are not Apartment, Babe, Car. They're Attitude, Behavior, Consequences. The only way to get through something, is to go through it, not around it. I was afforded the gift of desperation Sat Night Alive - Anger was topic. Lots of good shares. Made it to 12 meetings this week. Shared at 5 meetings this week. Tried 2 different meetings this week. Made 1 new girlfriend. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 3 days in 63 days. I have gone to 93 meetings in 63 days (9 weeks)

Week 8 - Post Freedom

Week 8 - Post Freedom - Sunday, May 6 St. Kevs - Speaker. Went w/ R. Met M there. Can't help someone until they're ready. Monday, May 7 Noon Womens - Love and tolerance. Went w/ J. Made new friend. *SHARED/READ SWAN - If you like everyone in AA, you're not going to enough meetings. *SHARED/READ Beginners - She is going to bring me down with her before I can build her back up. Saw J from Freedom there. Coiled spring analogy. Tuesday, May 8 530 @ CW - BB Vision 4 You. Language of the Heart pg. 201. FREEDOM ALUMNI! #2 Wednesday, May 9 8pm Sproul - They have free will too. *SHARED Thursday, May 10 Swat Thurs - J spoke. Let in be. Serene mothering. *SHARED Friday, May 11 6pm Back 2 Basics - We're many and we're varied. *SHARED Unity. Common welfare. Safe Haven. Quiet or not so quiet suffering/desperation. Topic - disruptions/fights etc FREEDOM ALUMNI! #3 Saturday, May 12 Fell sleep. Tired. Sick. Made it to 10 meetings this week. Shared at 5 meetings this week. Tried 2 different meetings this week. Made 1 new girlfriend. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 3 days in 56 days. I have gone to 81 meetings in 56 days (8 weeks)

Week 7 - Post Freedom

Week 7 - Post Freedom - Sunday, April 29 - Day 29! Step Sunday - Tradition #4. Rule #62. 430 @ CW - Shared Monday, April 30 - 30 Days!!! SWAN - Read. 30 day chip. Beginners - Shared. 30 day chip. Step #1 Tuesday, May 1 730 @ CW - Step 3. Young ppl. Newbies. *SHARED Wednesday, May 2 FREEDOM ALUMNI! First one! Thursday, May 3 RP FF 10 - Feelings aren't facts. But, its a fact that I'm feeling a certain way. Helping people is like putting $ in the sobriety bank. Drunks are full of lame excuses. Broken shoe lace problems. Be happy you have shoes?! Page 30, 62, 89. Promises page 83, 84. *SHARED 530 Frederick Club - Matching calmality with serenity. *SHARED Friday, May 4 Happy Hour Frederick - Step #4. Fact finding proposition. Do no more damage in step 1-3, address them in step 4. Emotional sobriety workbooks. Reach one teach one. *SHARED Saturday, May 5 830 Frederick - BB Page 354 Lifeguard that doesn't know how to swim Made it to 10 meetings this week. Shared at 5 meetings this week. Tried 4 different meetings this week. Made 1 new girlfriends. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 2 days in 49 days. I have gone to 71 meetings in 49 days (7 weeks)

Week 6 - Post Freedom

Week 6 - Post Freedom - Sunday, April 22 - Day 22! 7pm St. Mads - Topic = service... Monday, April 23 SWAN - Topic= One Day At a Time. Be present. Pray. Reactive mode. Anxiety is when we worry about the future. Depression is when we dwell on the past Can't save your ass and your face at the same time. Shared* Tuesday, April 24 Safari - anniversary. defend my right to drink until the end Wednesday, April 25 CW Noon- Grapevine. My bottom is my bottom, it doesn't matter what it is, as long as I find it. My thinking took me back out drinking. You're too young (to be an alcoholic). You don't look like one (alcoholic) Today, my dark past is my best asset. Don't look for the people in AA, look for the AA in people. Functioning alcoholic = drunk with a job CW Bigbook - Dr. Opinion. Guilt, Shame, Remorse --> Fuels Drinking --> Fuels guild, shame and remorse Either headed towards a drink, or away. CW Women's - Daily reflection = grateful. Fill the hole, in your soul Thursday, April 26 Sober Sisters in Bryn Mawr - shared, brought kaelie Friday, April 27 CW @ 530 - pg. 164 . speaker. when the gavel drops, the joking stops Saturday, April 28 As Bill Sees It - p. 162.Those other people. Judging/Inventory - causes more damage (my experience in keystone, those people) CW Women's - Big Book, housewife story Made it to 10 meetings this week. Shared at 3 meetings this week. Tried 2 different meetings this week. Made 2 new girlfriends. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 2 days in 42 days. I have gone to 61 meetings in 42 days (6 weeks)

Week 5- Post Freedom

Week 5 - Since being discharged on 3/18/18 (Sunday) Sunday, April 15 - Day 15! 7:30pm Friends Springfield - Went with Meg. Sobriety is not a spectator sport. How I am feel is not how I am doing. Keep the door open so you can see the past and remember it, but don't friggen stare at it. Monday, April 16 8pm Redeemer Springfield - Related to speaker, got her #. Shared. Tuesday, April 17 5:30 @ CW 7pm Rose Tree Women's - Read Dr. Opinion. Body is just as abnormal as mind. Written in roman numerals because it was not written by a drunk. Joe and Charlie tapes. Shared. Wednesday, April 18 10am Stay In Today Ridley - Went w/ J. Step 4. Termite analogy. Program of attraction. You are the problem. Problems are here to make us better, not make us bitter. If you don't do a 4th, you'll pick up a 5th. 7pm Springfield Havertown - Met Meg there. Thursday, April 19 8pm Swat Candle - Met D and K there. Count the days. Relapse. Planning/Plotting. The things we tell ourselves. Wasn't that bad. First time you refer to yourself as an alcoholic. Shared. Friday, April 20 10am RP BB - went w/ J. MORE ABOUT ALCOHOLISM. In or Out, no in between. Incomprehensible demoralization. Alcoholism 101. Can't and don't want to drink normally. I told the barkeep I might be an alcoholic, he told me to 'keep coming back'. Pick up a drink, fall to pieces. Acceptance is the answer. Noon @ CW - If you're feeling bad, make a meeting. If you're feeling good, make 2. I'm allergic to booze, I break out in handcuffs. I care more about your sobriety than your feelings. Saturday, April 21 - 3 weeks! 21 days! 1:30 @ CW - He's not on my time, but he is right on time (God). Shared. Midnight @ CW - Went w/ R. Selfish/Selfless. Shared. Made it to 11 meetings this week. Shared at 4/11 meetings this week. Tried 5 different meetings this week. Made 2 new girlfriends. Read 3 times. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 2 days in 35 days. I have gone to 51 meetings in 35 days (5 weeks)