Week 5- Post Freedom

Week 5 - Since being discharged on 3/18/18 (Sunday) Sunday, April 15 - Day 15! 7:30pm Friends Springfield - Went with Meg. Sobriety is not a spectator sport. How I am feel is not how I am doing. Keep the door open so you can see the past and remember it, but don't friggen stare at it. Monday, April 16 8pm Redeemer Springfield - Related to speaker, got her #. Shared. Tuesday, April 17 5:30 @ CW 7pm Rose Tree Women's - Read Dr. Opinion. Body is just as abnormal as mind. Written in roman numerals because it was not written by a drunk. Joe and Charlie tapes. Shared. Wednesday, April 18 10am Stay In Today Ridley - Went w/ J. Step 4. Termite analogy. Program of attraction. You are the problem. Problems are here to make us better, not make us bitter. If you don't do a 4th, you'll pick up a 5th. 7pm Springfield Havertown - Met Meg there. Thursday, April 19 8pm Swat Candle - Met D and K there. Count the days. Relapse. Planning/Plotting. The things we tell ourselves. Wasn't that bad. First time you refer to yourself as an alcoholic. Shared. Friday, April 20 10am RP BB - went w/ J. MORE ABOUT ALCOHOLISM. In or Out, no in between. Incomprehensible demoralization. Alcoholism 101. Can't and don't want to drink normally. I told the barkeep I might be an alcoholic, he told me to 'keep coming back'. Pick up a drink, fall to pieces. Acceptance is the answer. Noon @ CW - If you're feeling bad, make a meeting. If you're feeling good, make 2. I'm allergic to booze, I break out in handcuffs. I care more about your sobriety than your feelings. Saturday, April 21 - 3 weeks! 21 days! 1:30 @ CW - He's not on my time, but he is right on time (God). Shared. Midnight @ CW - Went w/ R. Selfish/Selfless. Shared. Made it to 11 meetings this week. Shared at 4/11 meetings this week. Tried 5 different meetings this week. Made 2 new girlfriends. Read 3 times. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 2 days in 35 days. I have gone to 51 meetings in 35 days (5 weeks)

Week 4 - Post Freedom

Week 4 - Since being discharged on 3/18/18 (Sunday) Sunday, April 8 - Day 8! 10:30 @ CW - Can't Keep a good alcoholic down. 4:30 @ CW Monday, April 9 5pm Hard Core - Honesty Vs. Thorough. Feelings are NOT facts! 8:30pm Beginners - If I couldn't find an answer, there is none. Japan was bombed 2x before they surrendered, I was bombed a hell of a lot more than that Fatal things only have to happen once If you only do 50% of the work, You'll get 0 results. Tuesday, April 10 5:30 @ CW - I shared Wednesday, April 11 Swat Agnostics - It is different when I make it different. Attitude into Action. You want it but you don't, in regards to another day. Looking at things objectively I shared! Media Weds - You might get rid of fear by picking up that first drink, but it'll come back and increase from there. I shared about being content and loving the small victories. Thursday, April 12 Noon @ CW - Went w/ June. Shared about feeling 'content' even with the bs at the apt. Insanity that goes on in the real world VS. the simplicity of AA. Can't/Don't Worry about whether or not he is an alcoholic. 7:30pm @ CW - Small meeting only 7 people. I shared a few times. Friday, April 13 Media Nooners - Went w/ R. Saw J there. Picking up a drink is like picking a fight with a Gorilla, it is over when the Gorilla says it is. H.O.P.E - Hearing Other Peoples Experiences Don't trip over something in the past. Saturday, April 14 - 2 weeks! 7am - Only two emotions Love/Faith and Fear Allowed to have and not to keep - resentments You're responsible for your efforts, not for the results If you spot it, you got in, in regards to other people character defects 9am - S.L.I.P - Sobriety Lost It's Priority Whatever I put in front of my sobriety, will be the first thing I lose when I pick up Made it to 12 meetings this week. Shared at 5/12 meetings this week. Tried 4 different meetings this week. Made 1 new girlfriend. Since I've been out of keystone I've only missed a meeting 2 days in 28 days. I have gone to 40 meetings in 28 days (4 weeks)

Week 3 - Post Freedom

Week Three - Sunday, April 1 - Saturday, April 7 Sunday, April 1 - 2 days 7am Media - Grapevine meeting. Sober @ 14. Had a nice chat w/ J 830pm WAWA - Mike spoke, had a similar HS/College drinking experience to me. Met June there. Monday, April 2 830pm Beginners - Surrender was the topic. Tuesday, April 3 530pm CW - It's not what happens to you. It's how you react. Alcoholics are like Tea Bags, they don't work until they're in hot water. 730pm Trinity - 1/2 full or 1/2 empty, at least I have water Wednesday, April 4 530pm CW BB - Sponsor/12 Step 8pm Sproul Lanes - Shared, met some great ladies. WE stay sober, I drink. Compare my insiders to another persons outsides Thursday, April 5 Noon CW - It doesn't always come as a bottle 8pm Swat Candle - "Slaying The Dragon" - book Friday, April 6 7:30pm Media Winners - 3 W's Will, Want, Work I am powerless over everything If you throw sobriety in the corner enough, you'll eventually reach for it and it will not be there Alcohol took me to a lot of nice places (lol not) Sodriety - lol People were put in my path, they were there before, but now I am ready to listen to them and use them Saturday, April 7 - 1 week! 10am CW Begin - Can't stay sober on yesterdays sobriety 2 times you need a meeting --> when you think you need one, and when you don't think you need one If you're not satisfied with the results of AA, Alcohol will refund your misery 3 fold 730pm Sat Nite Alive - Check up from the neck up Brought KBug to her first AA meeting. She was good. Read her books, played on her tablet, sat in my lap quietly, joined the circle at the end. The general consensus is that kids are accepted at most meetings, and if someone has a problem with a kid being there they can go f themselves and find another meeting! :) So I have 1 week of sobriety, I discovered I can bring KBug to a meeting, I'm still meeting some cool people and making connections. I have a few women I text daily. As far as meetings go I have gone to 28 meetings in 21 days. Not too shabby. Things are slowly coming together

Week 2 - Post Freedom

Week 2 - Out and About After Freedom Sunday March 25 - Saturday March 31 Sunday March 25 - 38 days sober 5:30 @ Clubhouse - had a great talk with the chair about marriage/relationships. 7:30 @ St. Kevin's Alive Again - step 1 Monday, March 26 We drink to a black out in order to forget about the bad shit you did during a black out... INSANITY I was really good at playing character assassination (in reference to judging other people) Tuesday, March 27 Media - As Bill Sees It Pain/Progress - Reading/Topic Life Event --> Pain --> Cope --> Booze --> More Pain --> Rinse and Repeat Life Event --> Pain --> Cope --> Heal Media Young Peoples BB Sat w/ J. Met Jm. Asked about Secretary position. Wednesday, March 28 - 41 Days Went to visit Shea @ First Steps... no meeting Thursday, March 29 - Back to 0 Swat Pres Meeting ... left early... planned to drink... drank Friday, March 30 My researched proved that drinking still sucks and hangovers are still a bitch. Worked at FT all day. Drunk/Hungover. Pleasant! Saturday, March 31 - Day 1 Back on the wagon. Told D and my parents. Media Promises Meeting w/ D. Picked up a white/silver chip. Worked at FT all day and felt better. Stayed around people. All in all I am back to Day 1. I have gone to 6 meetings this week. Total I've gone to 16 meetings in 14 days.